Some Untitled Meme...

(I know, two posts in one night? :O)

Rules:
-Post lyric snippets to ten songs (don't make them brutally obvious)
-FList, guess the song name and artist
-Once someone has guessed the song correctly, strike it through and put the person's name next to it.
-The person who just guessed the song now goes and posts ten songs on their blog.
-If you guess multiple songs, you only have to do this meme once.

I don't think I have ten regulars on my flist... so... CCGers, come try.

1) Every time we're intercepted
Feels more like suicide
Slow and sad, come in silence
Arise a bitter mind

2) I've been diggin' in the crates ever since I was livin' in space
Before the rat race, before monkeys had human traits
I mastered numerology, big bang theology
Performed lobotomies with telekinetic psychology

3) And I for one can seen no blood
From the hearts and wrists allegedly slit
And I for one won't stand for this
If this scene were a parish, you'd all be condemned
(I Constantly Thank God For Esteban, by Panic! At The Disco, courtesy of Rainbow)

4) And there's nothing in your head or pocket
Throat or wallet that could change just how this goes
And everyone shakes to the beat with a barrel down their throat

5) So this is it, so this is it
So this is the silence, so this is the silence we've began
It's never quite, it's never quite over
It's never quite over in the silence

6) Well, they all cheat at cards and the checkers are lost
My cellmate's a killer
They make me do push-ups in drag
But nobody cares if you're losing yourself
I am losing myself, and I miss my mom!
Will they give me the chair?
Lethal injection or swing from a rope if you dare?!
Ah, nobody knows all the trouble I've seen!

7) Well, look who's dying now
Slit wrists for sleeping with the girl next door
I always knew you were such a sucker for that
It doesn't matter what you say
It never mattered anyway
It never mattered anyway

8) I don't want to love you if love leaves me this cold
I don't want to love you if love is this alone

9) Smash it up, smash it up! I'm gonna kick you down
Be cool tonight, don't wanna start a fight
Smash it up, smash it up, tonight we kickin' it down
Aaaaah, one, two, three, go!

10) It never used to hurt before
It isn't funny anymore (It isn't funny anymore)
Feeling so alone now
Funny how you wish someday that you could die at the hospital

(little hint: no two songs here are by the same artist)

ETA: Just realized that you can't use strikethrough here... using red font instead.

76.

That is the number of days of summer left.

I am officially a high schooler as of yesterday.

I'm happy. Summer is here.

Peace, love, and Santi,
~~Dawny~~

Fanfiction Writer's Meme

I got tagged. Enjoy.

Tomoe’s

Fanfiction Writer’s Meme

1) How about a brief introduction of yourself?

‘Ello, dears! My name is Dawnfire, but you can call me Dawn, Dawny, or Dawneh. I am a dancer (so obviously I must be a slut and an airhead), a pyromaniac fire spinner, and a computer-obsessed teenager. I should probably let you know that I’ve only written one fanfiction. But I read loads of it. And I’m writing a completely fiction story based off a roleplay called Vyrus.

2) Fabulous! And what got you into fanfiction to begin with?

Truthfully, I wrote my first and only fanfiction in school. It was for a short story project, but it ended up being ten pages. Then I found FF, posted it there, and bam. My fanfiction. (My other story has yet to be released, so you won’t get details... yet.)

3) I see, so what kind of fanfiction do you like to write?

Action all the freakin’ way. Seriously, I can’t write romance. I just... I really just can’t. But I know that is the center of all fanfiction, usually, so I toy around with it a bit. For bandom, I do love to read a good AU...

4) Do you write the same pairings/characters? Or are you a fandom whore?

For bandom... I am so an OTP person. It’s not even funny. Same with 24 and Charlie Bone. But with Warriors... I am such a fandom whore when it comes to characters, mainly because there are so many. With pairings... there are some that I can’t stand, but I’ll read lots.

5) What is your most popular fanfic and why do you think people like it so?

Uh, Treachery, just because it’s the only one I’ve written. xD

6) Forget other people, what is the fanfic you’ve written that you’re most proud of?

I would say, “Look at the above answer,” but really, that’s not it. I’m really loving writing Vyrus right now; even though I think it’s trash sometimes, I’m having so much fun writing it...

7) Do you find writing easy? Hard? What are the most difficult aspects of writing you struggle with?

It’s insanely easy, gosh. I wish. It’s really really difficult for me. I don’t know what’s difficult, but I do know that me being a perfectionist is hard for me to deal with. I’m a good descriptive writer, but I always have trouble with the flow and overall style and reading ease.

8) Write a few sentences or so of your favorite pairing or character.

Littlecloud lay in the basin of the Moonpool, his nose touching the starlight-infused waters. His mind wasn’t on the troubles with Sol, on his new, bounding apprentice, or even in the frosty lake territory. It was back in the old forest, trembling under Firestar’s -- then Fireheart’s -- cool green gaze. It was with Cinderpelt, her normally soft mew begging with a new ferocity: “Please let me help them!” It was hearing her defend them against Fireheart himself; it was watching her determination to find a cure to the Carrionplace disease; it was hearing her comforting purr that seemed to say, "Everything will be alright." It was with the memories of her bounding up to him excitedly at the Moonstone, at the Moonpool. It was seeing the badgers. It was hearing the news. It was feeling the heartbreak.

Littlecloud could do a lot of things. He had the makings of a true medicine cat. He never gave up his faith. He never gave up without a fight. He won more battles than he lost.

But for all that he could do, he could not find her in StarClan.

“Where are you, Cinderpelt?” he mewed quietly, his eyes drifting closed, letting the starlight fill his mind. “Will I ever see you in StarClan?”

~~~

I did tell you about overdoing myself.

9) Are there any fanfiction trends/clichés you can’t stand or are just sick of?

I go crazy when people don’t know the rules of that series, i.e. naming characters in Warriors after things that cats wouldn’t know at all, etc.

10) Are you guilty of any of the fanfiction trends/clichés you now hate? Or are there any other ones?

I’d like to say that I’m quite knowledgeable about Warriors, so not really. Unless you want to count bad flow as a pet peeve, yeah, I’m guilty of that.

11) What was the first fandom you wrote for? Do you still like/participate in it?

Warriors! So long as the books are still coming, I will be elaborating on everything. And I hope to write more in the future, as well as expand into bandom, Charlie Bone, 24, etc.

12) Name your OTPs or most frequently written pairings/characters and explain what it is about them that you love to write.

xD Well, prepare for a long list.

In bandom... oh gosh, I’m an OTP whore. Ryden, Joncer, and Frerard are my mains, with a side dish of Peterick and Gabilliam. I just love the onstage chemistry of all these pairings, and I’m a sucker for canon.

In 24, I strictly ship TonyMichelle, just because it’s really sweet and the onscreen chemistry is through the frickin’ roof. And just because I’m cool like that.

Charlie Bone is TancredEmma hands down. I do take a dip into CharlieOlivia or FidoOlivia, but not often.

With Warriors... it’s kinda different... I don’t really stick to canon much. My OTP, if I had to choose just one, would be Cinderpelt x Littlecloud (Fevershipping).

13) What would you call your writing “style”?

Um. I don’t know. I have a tendency to be very vague in my writing, but I describe a lot of things within that...

14) Do you read other people’s fanfic? If so, what do you find yourself reading the most?

Of course I read fanfic. It’s how I get by in life. xD. I mostly read bandom (and have stalked a bunch of people’s LJs just to make up for my lack of one) because I know where to find it (bandslashmania/slashatthedisco). I read the occasional 24 fic, and I read a lot of Warriors and CB.

15) Name one thing you’d love to write, but have been too afraid or shy to do.

Um, hm, bandom. I never seem able to write good bandom because a) I’m scared I’m gonna wreck a reputation or b) I’m not going to capture the people very well.

16) Do you have trouble taking criticism? Or worse yet, do you have the dreaded bloated ego?

I do. I find it really hard to see criticism on something that I’ve worked so hard on... but I’m trying to get past that. And I don’t have a bloated ego (I think), it’s more like I beat myself over my writing. My friend said randomly, “Writing is like shooting yourself in the head. You never know if you want to do it or not.” And I was like, “I guess that makes sense...”

17) When you write, is there anything that helps? Music? Quiet room?

A working keyboard would be nice. xD Seriously. And I can never listen to too much music when I write because it influences me way too much. If I listen to something sad, people start dying. If I listen to something angry, gory details are frequent. If I listen to something happy/dance-hall-ish, everyone starts falling in love. I like silence, although it’s hard to get around the house.

18) What inspires you?

Everything. Other people’s writing. Other people. Music. My friends. Random objects lying around the house. Scenarios. Etc.

19) Lastly, how would you sum up your fanfiction experiences and yourself as a writer?

Really... well, I guess it hasn’t done much to my school writing. I’m a fiction writer at heart and my style doesn’t convey in thesis papers, etc. But it helps me practice my writing skills overall, and it's really just something I can do to leave the world, if only for a moment.

20) Tag some friends, because they’ll hate you for it.

First of all, there’s no comma after “friends” Dx. I won’t bore you with the grammar. BUT I will tag my fanfiction writing flist. :D

From CCG: 4/25/09 (5:54 PM)

4/25/09 (5:54 PM):

I fail so hard.

Anyway, hello. I'm sorry guys, yeah, I was in Hawaii up until the 19th AND I had testing just this past week. I'm also writing a story based on a roleplay, but a few days ago, we decided that if we kept going with this one book, it'd be well over, like, 50 chapters. So we started another book. Meaning that I had to re-outline everything, which took up most of my time. Plus, we have a science project due on Monday and our history class just started our ten-page thesis papers. So I'm a bit stressed out.

But not enough to come update.

First of all, everything I saw on the Clan Members page has been updated. If you find a mistake, don't hesitate to ask me.

Secondly, SUNRISE IS OUT!!! I've read it, it's epic, etc. The thing is, I can't have people spoiling it for others. So, if you go here, this is the spoiler section. Discuss Sunrise there and only there. If I see anyone discussing what happens in the book anywhere other than said section, I will go so far as to give you a strike. Why? Because some people hate getting the surprise ruined for them. I will post a message when the spoiler rule has been lifted.

Third, please click these. They come from a place called Dragon Cave (DragCave for short). They're little dragon sprites that need clicks to survive. So please click them, get your own, etc.

Last and probably most importantly, I have made my verdict on the Tribe:

"In the above entitled actions we find the defendant... guilty."

AKA the Tribe is no more.

"WHY?!?!" Two main reasons: A) There are only four people in the tribe; only two of them roleplay, and B) Most of it is a place for spammers. And I'm getting tired of clearing chatboxes.

If anyone is vehemently against this, I may reconsider. But you'd need a pretty trying argument. Redfern, who plays Endless, and I have already discussed this at length and we seem to think that it's the best thing to do. Those in the Tribe can make new characters or relocate their characters to a clan/rogue/loner.

Peace, love, and Santi,
~~Dawny~~

From CCG: 4/10/09 (9:41 PM)

4/10/09 (9:41 PM):

I gotta go fast, I can't get on tomorrow before we have to leave.

I WILL BE IN HAWAII FOR THE NEXT WEEK until the 19th. However, I may just be able to get on a little. Don't expect much AT ALL (my grandmother has terrible virus protection).

I AM LEAVING THE SITE IN THE HANDS OF GOLDFEATHER AND THE MODS. They will keep me posted.

This is all I can say right now. Have fun, guys!

Peace, love, and Santi,

~~Dawny~~

From CCG: 4/7/09 (6:36 PM)

4/7/09 (6:36 PM):

Ugh, I'm spazzing out, Believers Never Die are, like, an hour away RIGHT NOW... and I can't go. Pete, I demand a video.

ANYWAY, just a few things... Raven, could you repost your profile for me? I lost it...

The books list has been updated, as well as some other information, as always, credit to Bookie of Warriors Wish.

I will make a 6,000 and one year banner as soon as Photoshop starts cooperating!

RiverClan is now closed for joining, WindClan needs cats!

Thanks for putting up with all this, guys. Peace, love, and Santi,

~~Dawny~~

From CCG: 4/7/09 (4:11 PM)

4/7/09 (4:11 PM):

I have some explaining to do. If you were here for site news, Warriors updates, or my epic fangirly flailings of "pretty boys in pretty constellations," this is not the post for you. If you wanted to hear a confession, it's here.

I'm going to start with a story. Just a story about this site.

When I set this up last year, I had one goal in mind: to make this the place that everyone could visit, no signing up, nothing. But a few months in, I was in way too deep. This site was literally my lifeline, my escape from the outside. And I like that. Up until now.

Now I can see what a bitch I was -- the bitch I am, the self-controlling, caught up, pompous prat that I am. And I am going to try and heal what I've screwed up.

Savannah Emerson: We met under the worst circumstances possible: I the noob, you the person with intents I was too blind to see. You meant no harm. I wanted to end it. And I went about it the wrong way. I went about everything the wrong way. Now that you're back, I can see what I did. And I'm sorry.

We'll never be the best of friends. But I'd like not to be enemies. If I could take back everything that happened back in July, I know for a fact that I would do it. Don't take this the wrong way, but I want to forget that we ever met, that anything ever happened. Either way, I'm not going to burden you. I'm not going to force you to change your opinion about me. But I am genuinely sorry. You can accept it or not.

Roseear: You can hate me. I can accept that. If I were you, I'd hate me, too. We were friends, I know. But you have your loyalties to your cousin. And I admire that. The harm that has come to you and your cousin over these last few months is inexcusable on my part. For everything that happened, this is not your fight. I take the burden off your back as my fault. You can hate me, whatever. All I want you to know is that I'm sorry, I overreacted to everything.

We may never be friends again. And I won't push it on you. But I want to clear the air between us and say that I'm sorry. And you may never forgive me. But it'll put me at ease to know that I tried, and maybe you listened.

Goldfeather: Do you know how much I admire you? Admire you for doing exactly what you believe is right? Do you know how much that means to me, that you try very hard to do this?

Thank you. That is all I can say.

Sunstar: This is a personal apology that I'm going to put here. I'm sorry for being such a jerk to you. I'm sorry you had to withstand all that. I still carry the little guilt seed of the fact that maybe, if I hadn't acted that way, you wouldn't have been... like this. Violent. Angry. And only 10. There are really times that I want to strangle you, but I may say that we are the same blood indeed. I love you to death, little bro.

For others that I may have hurt, I am sorry. I am sorry for letting spammers come and flood us to death. Heck, I'm sorry for ever dragging you into this. But it needed to be done.

I will kill this to the core. The problem that started it all are the people who may or may not have antagonized Savannah Emerson and her site. On a usual day, I would have defied, said I didn't have control over anyone, anything. But today is not a day for my excuses. I will ask you now to help me, help everyone and stop going there. It may just be the last push to get us back into safer waters.

At the beginning of this rant, I mentioned my depression issues. Today was no different. For a while there, I felt like dying. But the metaphorical gun is out my hands now. Today I'm standing for it. I know not everyone has to like me. And right now, what you think of me doesn't affect who I am anymore.

So, I've made my point. For everyone that I've hurt, I'm so sorry. This is my fault, and I will carry it singularly. It's your turn to accept your end of the bargain.

Mutually, humbly, and sincerely yours,

Dawn

"I know the world's a broken bone. But melt your headaches, call it home."